This unknown territory, this wilderness calling me into the deep underbelly of what I’m here for. When I close my eyes and take a breath I feel it so clearly, and yet I can’t see it, and neither do I know how I’ll get there. All I know is that it’s coming for me.
One step forwards was always how I planned to get there… one steady step at a time; planned, thought out, organised. And yet now I know that it’s all being turned upside down, and those carefully orchestrated ideas might as well have never been birthed; it’s coming for me in a totally different way.
There’s no hiding, not that I’d want to hide anyway, but there’s no dodging what’s to come. In the depths of my soul I know that it’s going to get dark before the dawn shows herself, I’m ready for that- or as ready as I ever will be.
“Your biggest breakdown will bring your biggest breakthrough” they say.
“Be brave” they say.
“Ask and the universe will provide” they say.
And yes, this change is in the wind, and as it whistles through the very trees that breathe life into my restless soul, it stings my eyes. I will no longer be the woman I am now. I will be forever changed, never to return to this wandering, and sometimes lost being, that tries to create order from things that are made of chaos. The magic within me now sways like a vast current that can’t be calmed and sees so many ports in its internal storm that it tries all of them just to feel safe. But I can feel the tides changing and the swell will no longer be desperate to make it any which way it can! And I can’t fucking wait to surrender to the divinely directed magic that will run orderly yet fiercely through my veins, and flow easily and contentedly into the world, perfectly channelled, with me as it’s sacred vessel.
“What’s your point?” they say.
Woman…I know some of you feel it too. Woman…I know some of you are also ready right now. So we will be the rising tide of women and beloved sisters walking into the torrent together, hand in hand, side by side, with our trust and faith in the pure magic that is about to be unleashed within us, that we must share with the world!
This unknown territory, this wilderness, it will lead us dancing and bathed in the light, all the way home.
love, light and insight,